How many of you have ever been called beautiful? Been called pretty or gorgeous? How about ugly, weird, or anything that is not what you know you are? Me. I have been called many things that I know I am not. Ugly, Fatty, Special Ed, Weirdo and many more but I know I am not who they say I am. I am me. What do you do when they call you those things? Do you run and tell someone or do you hide? I can tell you, DON'T do what I did and bottle it up, hide in your room like someone that is afraid of the way they look or how their hair looks like or even if they are sort and stout and have a tubby tummy. I am proud with the way I look. To me I am beautiful and if a guy can't see that and they have to say I am nothing or I am ugly and tubby, then they are not meant to be with me. Yes, I do need to lose some weight because I have gained some but not much. I have a plan that I am going to be starting soon. I'm gonna wake up early and run. Run around my court yard and my street and down the road until I get to the edge of the highway and turn around and run back. Just need my Ipod back so it won't be so silent.
Do you remember how I said I am lover of music? Well I found a few more songs that make me so happy when I listen to them. Sometimes when I am with my dad he will sing with me and it make me smile even bigger. There called...
- Tonight Tonight by Hot Chelle Rea.
- Chelsea by The Summer Set
- Can't Keep My Hands Off Of You by Simple Plan
- Love To You by The Summer Set
- I Like It Like That Way by Hot Chelle Rea
- and finally Trouble by NeverShoutNever
When I am down and need something to get me up, that's what I listening to or when I am blogging. It is the type of music that makes me want to jump up and down and dance around in the kitchen or living room singing to myself. I need to upgrade my music and start to run more.
My puppies are soooo BIG. We got them yesterday from Cindy and they are so big. Rocky isn't as big as the other ones but who care, he is just as adorable. He eats fine and he moves around like a worm and his eyes are starting to open finally and he is so sweet. We named them all... There is:
- Rocky
- Bear
- Cubby
- Hershey
- Mocha
- Spot
- Dipstick
They don't cry like they use to but they do sleep and they love to sniff around and lick you and all of them have their eyes open except Rocky. Since we only have one of the Kittens left, the pups are now my babies. OH OH OH, they are not the pups they are the piglets... Cute ain't it.
I'm so happy because I might have the possibility to hang out and spend the night with my Waifu. Its so much fun being with her. Especially since we like the same time of happy music and we love to jump up and down and dance like mad men. Angel has been calling and sending me text messages and I feel bad that I can't text back because I got my phone taken away. I hope he doesn't think I am ignoring him because I would never do that to him. Waifu said when I was over there last, that he was sweet and caring and mature and is a sweet heart... Ha.. Sounds like an amazing guy. I know him from school and we hung out a couple of times and her description is about right. I remember on the last day of band class... I wasn't feeling so well and he was in my band class. Waifu and Angel tried to make me feel better by laying me on his legs and she would run her fingers through my hair. Let me tell you what, by the end of that class I felt so much better. He also kissed my head but I kept that to my self because I was dating Cookie and it was a "Hope you feel better" kisses on the head type thing. At least that's the way I took it, but knowing me and my selective hear and visual skills, I might be wrong.
Who do you call when you are lost or confused? MOM!!! My mom has always been there for me through thick and thin, when Cookie broke my heart, when Loki was being man, when you feel like your whole world is flipped upside down. My mom is my superman in disguise. She might not think she is but to me she is. I don't know what I would do or where I would be or what I would be like with out her. She has helped me through so much crap in my life and I am grateful to have her in my life. AND she was the very first person that supported me in my choices and descisions to go into the Air Force. So a couple days after my birthday in less than a month, I am going to sign up for the DEP, and I am proud. She is my hero and my anchor. I don't NEED and guy. I might WANT one but I don't NEED one... I NEED a mom. \
Our trip to Wisconsin was beautiful. I had a blast with my family and I caught the tossing flowers and I got to FINALLY dance with my daddy. It was amazing. Then we went to Illinois for a day to spend time with my other aunt and uncle and we went on the lake in a boat. Me and my daddy went tubing and Me and my brothers went together and finally me and my Aunt went tubing. It was amazing and I had a blast. It was like the best time in the my life. I love spending time with my family and my cousins. The only problem with that trip was I got sick the day after we went tubing *HAHAHA*... I blame myself.
Well I am gonna give the computer back to my brother so he can get off my back.
Until Next Time,
Best Wishes,
ML-MG
I miss school, there's nothing more to say to that because it's plain to see. I'm finally letting go of my past and moving on. I try to be more colorful and spend time with my brothers and just be there for my family because I won't be there much longer. I've moved on from Cookie... It hurts the way he left me and never told me why, but I realized I don't need a why. He left because he wanted too... He is 18, he is a man, he can do whatever he wants and if that is breaking hearts, then so be it. I don't need it nor do I want it. So I moved on. I'm not planning on being with someone else for a while, but it doesn't hurt to look. Just don't touch.
