• Heros Hands
  

This is a beautiful song, I listened to it and it reminded me of what the police men did for those children. They went in, told hem to hold hands and close their eyes and not to open them until they were told. They didn't open their eyes until they were outside. Thank you for protecting those poor innocent lives.<3

They released the names of those poor beautiful children and adults, most of the children being 6. Breaks a persons heart, if they have one mind you. I got into an arguement with Davy yesterday,I wish I never did. It feels like a part of me is gone. Feels like no one wants him around. Feels like there is this trench between us, but I know somehow that trench will fill in and everything will be okay. I just know it. Couples always have faults and flaws.. and if they truly like each other(love, they will find a way to build a bridge and get over that trench. Davy, you mean the world to me and I'm sorry I don't say it often. We will and can find away around this trench.

I was reading something last night, and it reminded me of a famous women that I once read about in my World Civ. book. This women did ABSOLUTELY nothing with her life, she sat on the couch, she had lots of kids, she was really skinny and quite beautiful but did nothing with her life, then one day out of the blue, she said one line and it made her famous. It doesn't matter who she is or what the quote is, what matters is she decided to change. She decided to speak up. So I am speaking up now. RELIGION caused wars. It doesn't and SHOULDN'T matter what religion you are, AS long as YOU have something to look forward to and someone to help you through the day. NO ONE should ever fight over whose view points are right and whose are wrong. IT should never come in the way. RELIGION causes wars and as the great and wise Forrest Gump says, "that's all I got to say about that."

Until Next Time...

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Proud U.S. Airman Gordon

Leave Date July 20th, 2013

Proud Sister of 2 Little Brothers

Proud Daughter of a Wonderful Mother

Proud Girlfriend of David D.

~US AIR FORCE~

Well...                                            (No Pictures Today Sorry don't feel like it)

Sometimes the words just slip away from you. Mine did, and have been since I got home. To come home with such tragic news, kinda gives you a WHOLE new view point on life, makes you think what is important and what isn't, what monsters truly are, and what angel truly are. To sit down and hide your feelings is a VERY hard thing to do. I'm a very emotional person, but when news like this comes, I try to hide it, until I am locked away in my room, with the music blaring so no one knows what my emotions are. I show them when I am with my friends, and I share them with my mom. I bottle them up, till that bottle is filled to the brim and naturally falls over. The news I am referring to is all the angels that went up to heaven today. All the beautiful children that died for no reason at all, except for being in the same room as a monster. They didn't know he was a monster, they didn't know that they were going to die. 20 children died today in the hands of a man, who the police don't know if he shot himself or not. 6 adults died today, one being the principle and one being the vice principle. 20 kids, mainly kindergarden kids, became beautiful winged angels today. The news hurts deep down. Can you imagine this news being told to the 20 mothers and fathers, that their baby girl or boy died? Can you imagine if that child was the ONLY child to one of those mothers and fathers? Can you imagine how their holiday's are going to be? Brings a tear to my eye just typing it. Why would this man do this? Why  HARM a child, an innocent angel, a innocent soul? It hurts, and personally I am speechless.

Today was good before the news came, I brought up my grades. I got to finish drawling and coloring BIG smoosh for mom, and I got to spend more time with Davy which is always nice. He claims I seem zoned out. No, I'm just focused, next month I sign my job contract and thats when my life begins. I'm focused on my grades, I'm focused on my family and what little time I have with them. I am focused on the thought that I wont get to see Davy all the much over Christmas break. I'm focused on the things I need to do to make sure that the next 7 months are joyce with my family because that's all I have left. I am just focused and now with the news of the shooting in a Connecticut Elementary School, brings me to reality. Makes me more fearful, and makes me want to be closer to my family. I wish others could see what I see, but that is nearly impossible. I ignore the bad, I ignore the evil and focus on the good and the pure, but the evil always finds away through. Always.

I found out that Davy is not going to be going back to normal school until possible after the holidays and that really sucks, I was looking forward to seeing him everyday again, to hold his hand again, to see his smile that brightens my day up when I am stuck in a class with my ex or an annoying freshman. It just sucks. Well as I said before and I will probably say about a million times in my life, You can't always get what you want. At least not the first time, so you try try and umm try again. I found out also that I'm a drama magnet, that is going to stop. I pray. I don't like the feeling of EVERYONE coming to me wanting to know things, especially things I have nothing to do with. I hate the feeling that everyone relies on me for the answers, especially when I don't have them. I am proud to help and be there to defend you, but not about EVERYTHING. *sigh*

Well I am going to get off of here, maybe pop open a book for once and read some. I need to gain more knowledge anyway.

May all the little angels that died today, sleep in peace.

Until Next Time

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Proud U.S. Airman Gordon

Leave Date July 20th, 2013

Proud Sister of 2 Little Brothers

Proud Daughter of a Wonderful Mother

Proud Girlfriend of David D.

~US AIR FORCE~

BAM PENGUINS!!!

How much do I love thee, let me count the ways... well that's my number. Today was an amazing day. I don't know why or what, but it feels like a great big weight has been lifted off my chest, it feels like all the bad for just today was gone. I spent most of my day with Waifu, and talking to my mom. I even got to see Davy today which made the beginning of my day seem magical. It was cold this morning and so when I got on the bus, I curled up next to him and accidently fell asleep on his shoulder. He gets on the bus before me (pretty much the first one since the bus driver is his relative) and so he was really warm. That was the best way to start a morning. Well from then on, things just got better. I ignored all the idiots that were trying to put me down this afternoon like the Dunn brothers and Cody,  I went into the school with my head held high, my best friend by my side, and it felt like nothing was gonna stop me or get in my way. I got to my first class and got my test done easy *BAM* like lightning.. got an 18 out of 20 on it, missed 2 questions.. Took my other test (from when I was sick) *BAM* like lightning, I got that one done, got 19 out of 20. I felt incredible. Go to my next class, its math... I HATE MATH.. Sit down. Couch walks to me and says "where's your work?"I pull it out like lightning.. All completed and ready to be turned in... She takes it an grades it.. 100%. Go to my next class, *UGH* Relationships, guess what... IT WAS A FREE DAY!!! No work at all. So I emailed Davy but he couldn't get on his mac so I just emailed Waifu back and forth till my mac died. Finally go to my next and final class, CHOIR... I can't stand how she teaches this class but I go to it anyway. I sit down.. Guess what.. FREE DAY!!! work on solos for K-scope, which try outs are on the 19th of January... I got on the bus to leave home. Dunn Brother #1 gives me the bird, I smile and walk on by. I put my stuff down on the seat, ask Dixon, to put his guitar in my seat so no one can take our seat, see Davy, run off the bus and give him a big hug... For that moment, it felt like time had just stopped.. Completely, like there was nothing else in the world.

Well as you may or may not know, my madre is sicko. So all day long I have been trying to get her to feel better.. Nothing.. Until a brilliant idea popped in my head and then came the little penguin with his foot stuck in the cupcake. I remember watching it a commercial with him in it and she just laughed and laughed and so did I.. so what I did was draw a picture of the penguin in the cuppycake. Then I colored it in. Well Finally she tells me she wants a bigger one.. So here in a few minutes I am going to go and get my big sketch pad and draw this cuppycake smooshed penguin. I hope she loves it. At least it got her to feel alittle better, I mean I was the one to give her the bug anyway.

Well Anyway I am going to get off of here... and do the rest of my Black day homework.

Until Next Time

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Proud U.S. Airman Gordon

Leave Date July 20th, 2013

Proud Sister of 2 Little Brothers

Proud Daughter of a Wonderful Mother

Proud Girlfriend of David D.

~US AIR FORCE~

LEAVE ME ALONE I CAN FINALLY BREATHE!!!

OMG I CAN BREATH!!!... That's right, this morning, at approximately 3:58 am, I woke up to the smell of a toilet, beautiful right? Well it turns out that I was sleeping on a toilet. Not literally mind you, I was in bed, but the ENTIRE time I was sick, the dogs, cats, and Puppies were going underneath my bed and doing their business. I got up that mind, grabbed a bag and cleaned my room, sprayed it down and vacuumed the floor. Pushed my bed back to the wall and fell asleep. Not the happiest way to find out I can breathe..My room now smells like rainfall and floor cleaner.. I Enjoy being in my room now.. It makes me feel happy and healthier.

So I got news today that people are saying me and Davy are engaged... Davy told me he heard it from Cody, a redneck hick who is annoying, and he said he heard it from Loki.. Who I think heard it from Waifu. But the question is WHY is it being spread around. Is it because of my relationships class... Is it because I think like that..? Whatever it is, it needs to stop. I don't spread stuff about anyone else, why should I have things being spread around about me? So what if thats the way we talk, Loki you need to get your nose out of my business, CODY you need to get your redneck butt out of my life. You are driving me nuts. As for you Waifu, thats the last time I ever say or tell you anything. That is ridiculous.

Well anyway tomorrow I go back to school with my head held high and no one is gonna tell em what i can and can not do no more. I am in the United States Air Force I have an amazing family I am proud of my two litlte brothers. I have an Amazing boyfriend. and I love them very very very much... So I am gonna get out of here and Watch Because of Winn-Dixie. It's a good Story.

Before I go I came to realizations my favorite Air Planes.. are F-16... I like the F-16 Fighting Falcons and the F-16 Thunderbirds. I love how fast they can fly and I love how well put together they are. So yea.. I got into a fight with Davy today. He wouldn't understand my side of the story. We were fighting over rumors, how stupid they are. Well he thought that NO MATTER WHERE YOU GO THEY WILL FOLLOW YOU.. Wrong.. I have moved so many times.. 27 to be exact, and I have to admit I have done some stupid stuff in my life, so I am bound to have a few rumors here and there. Well, I have moved around so much that No one knows who I am. Meaning that rumors stay there. Stay put. Davy has never moved in his life, so he has been stuck around everyone that knows him. He wouldn't know if rumors travel with you. If only he can see my side. I love him to pieces but he alwasy has to be right. Well now that I got that off my chest I am going to play with my doggies ears.

Until Next Time

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Proud U.S. Airman Gordon

Leave Date July 20th, 2013

Proud Sister of 2 Little Brothers

Proud Daughter of a Wonderful Mother

Proud Girlfriend of David D.

~US AIR FORCE~

Miracles..

So I have no clue if I did a good thing or a bad thing yesterday but I showed Davy my blog and well I he made a blog of his own.. I love the name, and I pray that it will be good. But heres the link to his..

http://davidsuncensoredmind.blogspot.com/

He is well new so cut him some slack.

Anyway I just got back from the doctors and I was diagnosed with Bronchitis. Im taking an antibiotic and a steroid and I won't be back in school until Thursday. I mean I need the rest but I've been out since Monday. I hope Davy is okay, he gets to ride the bus tomorrow and his last day of A school is on Friday, I was misinformed the first time so there is my correction.

Well, I miss school so much and I hate being so far behind in my work that I actually had my little brother go to all of my classes on both gold and black day and get all of my work so I have something to do, So I am not behind no more.I hate being behind and I hate being sick... they are two things that should never be put together. I wish I was still in school right now, with me friends and my boyfriend. I wish I had school work to do and not just being lazy, I wish I wasn't at home no more, but I can't go outside because then I'll get snotsicles, which are just nasty.

Here's to all the troops that are coming home for Christmas. For those that can not be home for Christmas, I am hoping you guys are safe and have a happy holidays. I wish I knew how to make everyone Christmas as mary as mine is going to be.. I will be with my Family and have my Amazing boyfriend with me. I wish there was a way that everyone can have that. Besides this is my last Christmas with my family, Next Christmas I'll be in tech school. I will miss them terribly but I will know that I will always have them in my heart.

SOOOO Does anyone know who the real santa is? Some say its the man in the red suit, others think its their parents. I think it's the miracle that in our hearts, the part of us that wants to give and not get. The parts that show more affection towards others, to the elder and to the youth. I believe we all have that part in us, just not aware of it.



Well I feel like I ramble and I need to rest and maybe get more work done and possible talk to Davy, So ...

Until Next Time

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Proud U.S. Airman Gordon

Leave Date July 20th, 2013

Proud Sister of 2 Little Brothers

Proud Daughter of a Wonderful Mother

Proud Girlfriend of David D.

~US AIR FORCE~

New, Sick Me

I WANT TO BE AN AIR FORCE PILOT, well I don't always get what I want, but I get pretty darn close. I may not be able to be a pilot, but I am in the Air Force. Yup I leave, with any hope, July 20th of next year, exactly 6 days after my 18th birthday. That makes me one happy camper. I'm ready to show my dedication to my country, I'm ready to shed blood, sweat and tears to my country. We work so hard for people to be free, now it's my turn. I might not be going into combat, I might not be going over seas, but I'll be in the USA defending our country the best way I know how, so do you think I got what it take to be in the Air Force?

I am home currently, yea yea I know, it's a Monday, shouldn't I have my happy butt in school right now? Well to be honest, I love my mother to pieces but I'd rather be in school right now, but sadly I can not be, because I am sick... it feels like my insides are on fire and my head is having a rock party in it. It feels like my nose wants to be a facet and drips all day, and on top of that, my stomach is disagreeing with EVERYTHING I eat. So I'm starving right now. So what are some things you do when you're home sick?

So I recently started dating an AMAZING guy. I call him Davy. Only because sometimes his feet smell like Davy John's Locker. Mom told me I had to wait till after the first of December to start dating him, but I've known him for about a year and a half now. Everyone at school thought we were already dating, which was hilarious to see their faces when we announced we STARTED dating on the first. My parents love him, my whole family loves him. Well except for D. D I think still likes my ex Loki, which scares me, but I'm sure D will warm up to Davy. Davy is everything I wanted in a guy and so much more. He's tall, he has blonde hair, blue eyes. He loves surprises even though my mother hates them. He loves my mother and he loves hearing stories about our family and about my fathers wonderful dreams. He accepts me for me, and for once I can be myself around him. There is something about him that is different and its unique and it's hard to explain but it's there. When I'm around him fireworks light up the sky, I get all warm and fuzzy and sometimes light headed or weak to my knees, and it feels like the world keeps spinning round and round.

Well recently he has been in A school. He also got kicked off the bus. Davy is definitely a hot head, but you see the reason he got A school was because he was protecting me, the reason he got kicked off the bus was he was protecting me. So I can't help but feel like this is partly my fault, even if everyday he says its his and I shouldn't blame myself. I can't help it. He gets out of A school next Monday and he gets to ride the bus tomorrow, I just hope I'm feeling better to be on the bus to see him. I was talking to him last night and he is real worried that he gave me what his mother has, but I don't think he did.



Now I need my rest so I can get up a little later and do some homework.. I HATE being behind in my work. Hope you enjoyed the update

Until Next Time

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Proud U.S. Airman Gordon

Leave Date July 20th, 2013

Proud Sister of 2 Little Brothers

Proud Daughter of a Wonderful Mother

Proud Girlfriend of David D.

~US AIR FORCE~