New Beginnings

I have gone through a lot recently. A lot of changes has happened in my life that I feel I need to start all over... a clean slate... a do over!! So here I am.. starting fresh... new feelings... new thoughts... new everything. This time, I'm going to stick to it... and I think the best way to do that is to blog... my Mom blogs... and so do some of my friends... and I think that it would be healthy to have a place to go to just write how I feel without judgement.

Him... he's my new beginning... he's my guy. His name is Jess and he and I met at school. We were friends for a while and he tried to help me out with some really complicated things going on in my life. He was so sweet that it was hard not to fall for him. I told my Mom about him and she said I needed to kick the loser and go for a guy like him. Sooo... she asked him if he was going to ask me out... and at first he said no. Then he thought about it for awhile and... well then he asked me out. He's my peanut butter to my jelly... the star to my burst and the crack to my pipe!!! He's my "cookie"... and no one can ever change that!! He will graduate from school on Friday and Mom and I are going to his graduation. We plan to spend as much time as we can together before he leaves in September. Where is he going you ask? He is the few... the proud... the MARINES!!! He has been in the delayed entry program for awhile and will leave in September for basic training. I'm going to miss him like crazy but I just know that we can make it work. We'll write... and when we can we will call... and of course there is visits home! Love is a strong word to use... but I can honestly say... I love you Cookie!

It's official... I AM A SENIOR! I woke up this morning with a smile on my face because it was the official first day of the summer before my senior year. Mom told me last night that I need to smile more... and change my attitude from being sad that a lot of my friends and Cookie are all graduating to... I AM A SENIOR!!! I think I can handle that even though I will still be sad inside that my friends and Cookie aren't going to be at school in the fall. I've got so much to look forward to this summer... Senior Pictures... and ordering my class ring. I've got it all picked out already... I just can't wait. I am going to try to make the most of my senior year... and I'm going to try to study really hard cause I have to think of my future... even if it feels like a million miles away!

Ok... so I got my learner's permit! Yes that means I have access to the roads and to Iron Man (my Mom's car)!!! Does this scare me? TO PIECES!!! Does this scare Mom.... EVEN MORE!!! But Dad seems to be cool with it. Mom freaked me out the first day and I almost gave up and almost decided never to drive but I've come to conclude that I need to drive with my Dad. He's cooler... and she knows it... when it comes to cars. Mom tends to... um... panic a bit! I know she's proud of me... but I think the thought of me on the road and with other drivers on the road just scares her. I promise I'm going to be a good driver... and practice being a safe driver... just not with my Mom in the car... or else I'll need to give her a sedative!

I guess it's time to get off my duff and get something done. Mom and I have been having fun setting up my blog again... So I guess... I'll leave you with...

...Best Wishes - ML-MG