Oh wow how the time flies, seems like a year since the last time I blogged, when in fact it has only been a few weeks. Well here's some good news for all those to hear, I'm still with Davy, we worked everything out and everything seems perfect. I even got to spend Christmas with him, which was nice as well. He loved spending time with my brothers as I helped my mom and dad cook dinner, which included Ham, corn pudding, broccoli cornbread, green beans wrapped in bacon and p-squared, which is a very yummy pumpkin mix with cake crumble on top. Then Daddy and I made Chocolate chip oatmeal cookies, without baking them cuz all I wanted was the dough.

Christmas morning was nice as well, I got quite a bit of things. From Davy, I got some really pretty perfume and absolutely GORGEOUS teddy bear. From "santa" I got an Air Force Shirt *woot woot* I got some nice over shirts and a flannel, I got a Jack and Sally "Nightmare Before Christmas Shirt". I got a sketch book and a "Wreck this Journal" and some nice pens. I got a TORNADO in a JAR. *AWESOME* I got some really nice makeup, which will come in handy. I got some Grinch footy pj's. I got some pooh and eeyor and tigger slippers. I got some reese's pieces, and finally (drum roll please) I got a Really Nice LAPTOP. It's like one of daddy's gaming laptops, and guess what the first thing I download on it was. MINECRAFT lol!!! So yea I had a really nice Christmas.

My brothers had a nice Christmas too. My middle brother, D, got a lot of building toys and mind twisting toys like one is a ball and there is a ball in it and a whole lot of tracks and you have to complete each level on a seperate track its pretty cool. As for Wes, he got ANGRY BIRDS AND SKYLANDERS AND TRASH PACKS. That's all he wanted for Christmas. Both boys got a PS3 which was nice. I think they really enjoyed their Christmas.

As for mom and dad. Mom got a "Wreck this Journal" as well as pens. From Davy she got a Santa Claus and some really beautiful ornaments for her tree. Daddy got a sonic shirt and some chocolate covered Cherries. Davy was gonna get him some but he hate it. Daddy also got a Willy Wonka collectors addition for the Blue Ray and DVD it was nice. My whole family had a lot of fun and really enjoyed Christmas and really enjoyed having David over. 

Well That is my day and I'm exhausted and I am planning on playing with one of my kittens until bed. Goodnight.

Until next time

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Proud U.S. Airman Gordon

Leave Date July , 2013

Proud Sister of 2 Little 20thBrothers

Proud Daughter of a Wonderful Mother

Proud Girlfriend of David D.

~US AIR FORCE~

• Heros Hands
  

This is a beautiful song, I listened to it and it reminded me of what the police men did for those children. They went in, told hem to hold hands and close their eyes and not to open them until they were told. They didn't open their eyes until they were outside. Thank you for protecting those poor innocent lives.<3

They released the names of those poor beautiful children and adults, most of the children being 6. Breaks a persons heart, if they have one mind you. I got into an arguement with Davy yesterday,I wish I never did. It feels like a part of me is gone. Feels like no one wants him around. Feels like there is this trench between us, but I know somehow that trench will fill in and everything will be okay. I just know it. Couples always have faults and flaws.. and if they truly like each other(love, they will find a way to build a bridge and get over that trench. Davy, you mean the world to me and I'm sorry I don't say it often. We will and can find away around this trench.

I was reading something last night, and it reminded me of a famous women that I once read about in my World Civ. book. This women did ABSOLUTELY nothing with her life, she sat on the couch, she had lots of kids, she was really skinny and quite beautiful but did nothing with her life, then one day out of the blue, she said one line and it made her famous. It doesn't matter who she is or what the quote is, what matters is she decided to change. She decided to speak up. So I am speaking up now. RELIGION caused wars. It doesn't and SHOULDN'T matter what religion you are, AS long as YOU have something to look forward to and someone to help you through the day. NO ONE should ever fight over whose view points are right and whose are wrong. IT should never come in the way. RELIGION causes wars and as the great and wise Forrest Gump says, "that's all I got to say about that."

Until Next Time...

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Proud U.S. Airman Gordon

Leave Date July 20th, 2013

Proud Sister of 2 Little Brothers

Proud Daughter of a Wonderful Mother

Proud Girlfriend of David D.

~US AIR FORCE~

Well...                                            (No Pictures Today Sorry don't feel like it)

Sometimes the words just slip away from you. Mine did, and have been since I got home. To come home with such tragic news, kinda gives you a WHOLE new view point on life, makes you think what is important and what isn't, what monsters truly are, and what angel truly are. To sit down and hide your feelings is a VERY hard thing to do. I'm a very emotional person, but when news like this comes, I try to hide it, until I am locked away in my room, with the music blaring so no one knows what my emotions are. I show them when I am with my friends, and I share them with my mom. I bottle them up, till that bottle is filled to the brim and naturally falls over. The news I am referring to is all the angels that went up to heaven today. All the beautiful children that died for no reason at all, except for being in the same room as a monster. They didn't know he was a monster, they didn't know that they were going to die. 20 children died today in the hands of a man, who the police don't know if he shot himself or not. 6 adults died today, one being the principle and one being the vice principle. 20 kids, mainly kindergarden kids, became beautiful winged angels today. The news hurts deep down. Can you imagine this news being told to the 20 mothers and fathers, that their baby girl or boy died? Can you imagine if that child was the ONLY child to one of those mothers and fathers? Can you imagine how their holiday's are going to be? Brings a tear to my eye just typing it. Why would this man do this? Why  HARM a child, an innocent angel, a innocent soul? It hurts, and personally I am speechless.

Today was good before the news came, I brought up my grades. I got to finish drawling and coloring BIG smoosh for mom, and I got to spend more time with Davy which is always nice. He claims I seem zoned out. No, I'm just focused, next month I sign my job contract and thats when my life begins. I'm focused on my grades, I'm focused on my family and what little time I have with them. I am focused on the thought that I wont get to see Davy all the much over Christmas break. I'm focused on the things I need to do to make sure that the next 7 months are joyce with my family because that's all I have left. I am just focused and now with the news of the shooting in a Connecticut Elementary School, brings me to reality. Makes me more fearful, and makes me want to be closer to my family. I wish others could see what I see, but that is nearly impossible. I ignore the bad, I ignore the evil and focus on the good and the pure, but the evil always finds away through. Always.

I found out that Davy is not going to be going back to normal school until possible after the holidays and that really sucks, I was looking forward to seeing him everyday again, to hold his hand again, to see his smile that brightens my day up when I am stuck in a class with my ex or an annoying freshman. It just sucks. Well as I said before and I will probably say about a million times in my life, You can't always get what you want. At least not the first time, so you try try and umm try again. I found out also that I'm a drama magnet, that is going to stop. I pray. I don't like the feeling of EVERYONE coming to me wanting to know things, especially things I have nothing to do with. I hate the feeling that everyone relies on me for the answers, especially when I don't have them. I am proud to help and be there to defend you, but not about EVERYTHING. *sigh*

Well I am going to get off of here, maybe pop open a book for once and read some. I need to gain more knowledge anyway.

May all the little angels that died today, sleep in peace.

Until Next Time

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Proud U.S. Airman Gordon

Leave Date July 20th, 2013

Proud Sister of 2 Little Brothers

Proud Daughter of a Wonderful Mother

Proud Girlfriend of David D.

~US AIR FORCE~

BAM PENGUINS!!!

How much do I love thee, let me count the ways... well that's my number. Today was an amazing day. I don't know why or what, but it feels like a great big weight has been lifted off my chest, it feels like all the bad for just today was gone. I spent most of my day with Waifu, and talking to my mom. I even got to see Davy today which made the beginning of my day seem magical. It was cold this morning and so when I got on the bus, I curled up next to him and accidently fell asleep on his shoulder. He gets on the bus before me (pretty much the first one since the bus driver is his relative) and so he was really warm. That was the best way to start a morning. Well from then on, things just got better. I ignored all the idiots that were trying to put me down this afternoon like the Dunn brothers and Cody,  I went into the school with my head held high, my best friend by my side, and it felt like nothing was gonna stop me or get in my way. I got to my first class and got my test done easy *BAM* like lightning.. got an 18 out of 20 on it, missed 2 questions.. Took my other test (from when I was sick) *BAM* like lightning, I got that one done, got 19 out of 20. I felt incredible. Go to my next class, its math... I HATE MATH.. Sit down. Couch walks to me and says "where's your work?"I pull it out like lightning.. All completed and ready to be turned in... She takes it an grades it.. 100%. Go to my next class, *UGH* Relationships, guess what... IT WAS A FREE DAY!!! No work at all. So I emailed Davy but he couldn't get on his mac so I just emailed Waifu back and forth till my mac died. Finally go to my next and final class, CHOIR... I can't stand how she teaches this class but I go to it anyway. I sit down.. Guess what.. FREE DAY!!! work on solos for K-scope, which try outs are on the 19th of January... I got on the bus to leave home. Dunn Brother #1 gives me the bird, I smile and walk on by. I put my stuff down on the seat, ask Dixon, to put his guitar in my seat so no one can take our seat, see Davy, run off the bus and give him a big hug... For that moment, it felt like time had just stopped.. Completely, like there was nothing else in the world.

Well as you may or may not know, my madre is sicko. So all day long I have been trying to get her to feel better.. Nothing.. Until a brilliant idea popped in my head and then came the little penguin with his foot stuck in the cupcake. I remember watching it a commercial with him in it and she just laughed and laughed and so did I.. so what I did was draw a picture of the penguin in the cuppycake. Then I colored it in. Well Finally she tells me she wants a bigger one.. So here in a few minutes I am going to go and get my big sketch pad and draw this cuppycake smooshed penguin. I hope she loves it. At least it got her to feel alittle better, I mean I was the one to give her the bug anyway.

Well Anyway I am going to get off of here... and do the rest of my Black day homework.

Until Next Time

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Proud U.S. Airman Gordon

Leave Date July 20th, 2013

Proud Sister of 2 Little Brothers

Proud Daughter of a Wonderful Mother

Proud Girlfriend of David D.

~US AIR FORCE~

LEAVE ME ALONE I CAN FINALLY BREATHE!!!

OMG I CAN BREATH!!!... That's right, this morning, at approximately 3:58 am, I woke up to the smell of a toilet, beautiful right? Well it turns out that I was sleeping on a toilet. Not literally mind you, I was in bed, but the ENTIRE time I was sick, the dogs, cats, and Puppies were going underneath my bed and doing their business. I got up that mind, grabbed a bag and cleaned my room, sprayed it down and vacuumed the floor. Pushed my bed back to the wall and fell asleep. Not the happiest way to find out I can breathe..My room now smells like rainfall and floor cleaner.. I Enjoy being in my room now.. It makes me feel happy and healthier.

So I got news today that people are saying me and Davy are engaged... Davy told me he heard it from Cody, a redneck hick who is annoying, and he said he heard it from Loki.. Who I think heard it from Waifu. But the question is WHY is it being spread around. Is it because of my relationships class... Is it because I think like that..? Whatever it is, it needs to stop. I don't spread stuff about anyone else, why should I have things being spread around about me? So what if thats the way we talk, Loki you need to get your nose out of my business, CODY you need to get your redneck butt out of my life. You are driving me nuts. As for you Waifu, thats the last time I ever say or tell you anything. That is ridiculous.

Well anyway tomorrow I go back to school with my head held high and no one is gonna tell em what i can and can not do no more. I am in the United States Air Force I have an amazing family I am proud of my two litlte brothers. I have an Amazing boyfriend. and I love them very very very much... So I am gonna get out of here and Watch Because of Winn-Dixie. It's a good Story.

Before I go I came to realizations my favorite Air Planes.. are F-16... I like the F-16 Fighting Falcons and the F-16 Thunderbirds. I love how fast they can fly and I love how well put together they are. So yea.. I got into a fight with Davy today. He wouldn't understand my side of the story. We were fighting over rumors, how stupid they are. Well he thought that NO MATTER WHERE YOU GO THEY WILL FOLLOW YOU.. Wrong.. I have moved so many times.. 27 to be exact, and I have to admit I have done some stupid stuff in my life, so I am bound to have a few rumors here and there. Well, I have moved around so much that No one knows who I am. Meaning that rumors stay there. Stay put. Davy has never moved in his life, so he has been stuck around everyone that knows him. He wouldn't know if rumors travel with you. If only he can see my side. I love him to pieces but he alwasy has to be right. Well now that I got that off my chest I am going to play with my doggies ears.

Until Next Time

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Proud U.S. Airman Gordon

Leave Date July 20th, 2013

Proud Sister of 2 Little Brothers

Proud Daughter of a Wonderful Mother

Proud Girlfriend of David D.

~US AIR FORCE~

Miracles..

So I have no clue if I did a good thing or a bad thing yesterday but I showed Davy my blog and well I he made a blog of his own.. I love the name, and I pray that it will be good. But heres the link to his..

http://davidsuncensoredmind.blogspot.com/

He is well new so cut him some slack.

Anyway I just got back from the doctors and I was diagnosed with Bronchitis. Im taking an antibiotic and a steroid and I won't be back in school until Thursday. I mean I need the rest but I've been out since Monday. I hope Davy is okay, he gets to ride the bus tomorrow and his last day of A school is on Friday, I was misinformed the first time so there is my correction.

Well, I miss school so much and I hate being so far behind in my work that I actually had my little brother go to all of my classes on both gold and black day and get all of my work so I have something to do, So I am not behind no more.I hate being behind and I hate being sick... they are two things that should never be put together. I wish I was still in school right now, with me friends and my boyfriend. I wish I had school work to do and not just being lazy, I wish I wasn't at home no more, but I can't go outside because then I'll get snotsicles, which are just nasty.

Here's to all the troops that are coming home for Christmas. For those that can not be home for Christmas, I am hoping you guys are safe and have a happy holidays. I wish I knew how to make everyone Christmas as mary as mine is going to be.. I will be with my Family and have my Amazing boyfriend with me. I wish there was a way that everyone can have that. Besides this is my last Christmas with my family, Next Christmas I'll be in tech school. I will miss them terribly but I will know that I will always have them in my heart.

SOOOO Does anyone know who the real santa is? Some say its the man in the red suit, others think its their parents. I think it's the miracle that in our hearts, the part of us that wants to give and not get. The parts that show more affection towards others, to the elder and to the youth. I believe we all have that part in us, just not aware of it.



Well I feel like I ramble and I need to rest and maybe get more work done and possible talk to Davy, So ...

Until Next Time

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Proud U.S. Airman Gordon

Leave Date July 20th, 2013

Proud Sister of 2 Little Brothers

Proud Daughter of a Wonderful Mother

Proud Girlfriend of David D.

~US AIR FORCE~

New, Sick Me

I WANT TO BE AN AIR FORCE PILOT, well I don't always get what I want, but I get pretty darn close. I may not be able to be a pilot, but I am in the Air Force. Yup I leave, with any hope, July 20th of next year, exactly 6 days after my 18th birthday. That makes me one happy camper. I'm ready to show my dedication to my country, I'm ready to shed blood, sweat and tears to my country. We work so hard for people to be free, now it's my turn. I might not be going into combat, I might not be going over seas, but I'll be in the USA defending our country the best way I know how, so do you think I got what it take to be in the Air Force?

I am home currently, yea yea I know, it's a Monday, shouldn't I have my happy butt in school right now? Well to be honest, I love my mother to pieces but I'd rather be in school right now, but sadly I can not be, because I am sick... it feels like my insides are on fire and my head is having a rock party in it. It feels like my nose wants to be a facet and drips all day, and on top of that, my stomach is disagreeing with EVERYTHING I eat. So I'm starving right now. So what are some things you do when you're home sick?

So I recently started dating an AMAZING guy. I call him Davy. Only because sometimes his feet smell like Davy John's Locker. Mom told me I had to wait till after the first of December to start dating him, but I've known him for about a year and a half now. Everyone at school thought we were already dating, which was hilarious to see their faces when we announced we STARTED dating on the first. My parents love him, my whole family loves him. Well except for D. D I think still likes my ex Loki, which scares me, but I'm sure D will warm up to Davy. Davy is everything I wanted in a guy and so much more. He's tall, he has blonde hair, blue eyes. He loves surprises even though my mother hates them. He loves my mother and he loves hearing stories about our family and about my fathers wonderful dreams. He accepts me for me, and for once I can be myself around him. There is something about him that is different and its unique and it's hard to explain but it's there. When I'm around him fireworks light up the sky, I get all warm and fuzzy and sometimes light headed or weak to my knees, and it feels like the world keeps spinning round and round.

Well recently he has been in A school. He also got kicked off the bus. Davy is definitely a hot head, but you see the reason he got A school was because he was protecting me, the reason he got kicked off the bus was he was protecting me. So I can't help but feel like this is partly my fault, even if everyday he says its his and I shouldn't blame myself. I can't help it. He gets out of A school next Monday and he gets to ride the bus tomorrow, I just hope I'm feeling better to be on the bus to see him. I was talking to him last night and he is real worried that he gave me what his mother has, but I don't think he did.



Now I need my rest so I can get up a little later and do some homework.. I HATE being behind in my work. Hope you enjoyed the update

Until Next Time

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Proud U.S. Airman Gordon

Leave Date July 20th, 2013

Proud Sister of 2 Little Brothers

Proud Daughter of a Wonderful Mother

Proud Girlfriend of David D.

~US AIR FORCE~

i love this song and thought you guys might too

This is the most amazing song in the world... well almost amazing song... my first favorite is Crazy Girl by Eli Young Band...

The day before yesterday I spent the night at Waifu's house and we had a blast...

Day Two and Three

I missed yesterday due to me having to clean and when I was done it was too late to blog... so here is 2 and 3

Day Two: Something I feel strongly about.

I don't like when people pick on other people... calling them fat and ugly... Its not right and unhuman....

Day Three: My current relationship, if single discuss why I am ?

Well if you have been reading my blog you would know my ex ripped out my heart and stomped on it... I just haven't found the right guy and I hope to find him one day... Still hoping I could hang out with Angel... but I am grounded right now so I don't dare ask.

Well I need to go and practice my ASVAB.. because next Friday I go see a recruitor and they might have me take the ASVAB there and I don't feel ready for this... My dad had me run with him today and he is gonna make me run again today.. he tried to make me sweat but failed because I am the type of person that does not sweat. I am sorry that this is sort and doesn't have pictures but I promise when I get this all situated it will look much better...

Until Next time,
Best wishes,
ML-MG

Day One: Five ways to win my heart

Well There are actually 6 ways to win my heart...

The first one is White Roses.... its a winner every single time. They can not be Red or Pink or even Blue.. They have to be White Roses. Something about them is just breath taking and it is like my heart is skipping a beat every time...

My second thing that could win my heart... is a guy that is gentle.. someone that will wrap his arms around my stomach and lay his head on my shoulder and hug me whenever I feel bad... or stand behind me and hug me. I'm a hugger if you haven't noticed. If he would grab my hand and hold it instead of me grabbing his hand and holding it, it would give me butterflies.

Someone to tell me I look pretty no matter what... Not to say I look over weight like my last one did... If he looked at me like I am the most beautiful thing he can think of it would be amazing.. because the last guys I were with, never quite told me I was pretty and it hurt. Just someone there to say I am pretty once in awhile is fine by me.. but not putting me on a pedal stool.

Another way to my heart is if he would run his fingers through my hair if I laid on his lap... not if I asked... but by instinct or just because he loved me. He would let me lay on his shoulder or on his lap when we are watching a movie. If I laid on his lap he would lean over and kiss my head... it would give me butterflies as well.. but alas no one has ever done that to me... but if he did... he would win my heart over in an instant.

I like when a guy would chase me around.. Like if we were playing ball in the backyard.. if I tossed a ball up and I grabbed it before him.. he would chase me around trying to get the ball back... instead of standing there like an idiot... if he caught me... I would love for him to pick me up and spin me around... and just callapse to the ground and stare at the clouds... but these are only dreams my heart makes up...

And Finally...If a guy could make me smile... someone that would not argue and not be so dang clingy or protective.. but is always there for me when I need him. I wish this guy was real. Its hard to find a guy this sweet around here, mainly hicks and d***s.... sorry but true. So what are the Five ways a guy would win your heart?

Until Next Time,
Best Wishes,
ML-MG

Trying New Things...

So I am going to try something new... I did it once with my mom but this time I want to try it alone... This way I could get more things out but in a new way... here it is... I am taking 2.. count them 2... blog challenges and combining them to make my own blog challenge... so here it is...

1. Day One: Five ways to win your heart
2. Day Two:Something you feel strongly about 
3. Day Three:Your current relationship, if single, discuss being single.
4. Day Four: Where you would like to be in 10 years.
5. Day Five: A book you ADORE!!
6. Day Six: Bullet your day... from waking up to going to bed.
7. Day Seven: Your top 5 pet peeves.
8. Day Eight: Your View on Religion
9. Day Nine: Things you want to say to you ex... if multiple, then all your ex's.
10. Day Ten: Your favorite comfort food and WHY!!!
11. Day Eleven: Your favorite childhood toy.
12. Day Twelve: Your five pet peeves
13. Day Thirteen: How important you think education is
14. Day Fourteen: A Moment you felt most satisified in life.
15. Day Fifteen: Weird things you do alone
16. Day Sixteen: If you could do any job in the entire world what would it be and why in detail.(Backstory on why)
17. Day Seventeen: Somewhere you would love to visit
18. Day Eighteen: Your earliest memory.
19. Day Nineteen: Put your music on shuffle and write down the first 10 that play and tell how you feel about them.
20. Day Twenty: Your biggest regret in life.
21. Day Twenty-one:Your fears, and how they came to be "fears"
22. Day Twenty-two:Post five pictures of actors (male or female) you find attractive.
23. Day Twenty-three: Something you miss dearly
24. Day Twenty-four:One thing your excited for and why!!
25. Day Twenty-five:Something you currently worry about
26. Day Twenty-six: Five weird things you like
27. Day Twenty-seven:Things you like about yourself and things you don't. "Your Perfect Imperfections"
28. Day Twenty-eight:Something you are proud of and why!!!
29. Day Twenty-nine:List 10 people, dead or alive, that you would invite to dinner. Include dinner menu and decorations.
30. Day Thirty:And finally Something you always thought... "What if".. about.

I am gonna start this tomorrow... because I made it up today... but don't it seem exciting. I want to do this alone, no one to remind me I need to blog, or that I have to impress ya'll.. this is my blog and if you don't like what you see then there is an x at the top of your screen... click it and have a nice day...

SOOO tomorrow is Angel's birthday and I would like to say.....

"Cumpleanos felix, cumpleanos felix, cumpleanos por Angel, cumpleanos felix..."

HA I remembered it... I am so proud... For those that don't have a clue what this is.. it is the birthday song in Spanish... Four years of it pays off... Oh and speaking of birthdays, I have a list for what I want for my birthday in less than a month...

1. Anything and everything Air Force.
2. To go swimming with my family and with Waifu at my Nanny's pool
3. To have my daddy make a cheesecake instead of a normal cake.
4. To finally not be afraid to drive on 60...
5. and finally Swiss Steaks with Country Gravy and Rice and corn on the cob... YUM!!!

Not a long list but it is what I want... and pray I could possible get.

Well that is all I really have to talk about I'm missing my friends and I have a count down until school starts... SO with that...

Until next time...

Best wishes,
ML-MG

Trouble?

There are days that I have no clue what to talk about and then there are days that I can't stop talking. Guess you're wondering what I am talking about? To be honest... I have no clue. Today was slow and somewhat boring. Watched T.V., Listened to music, worried about my brother over heating because it was HOTTT!!!! Today was just a slow day. I do have my concerns like my birthday or what my daddy is doing right now. I going nuts being surrounded by a whiny 9 year old and a logical 14 year old that thinks he knows everything. I'm worried about Rocky. He is so tiny. SO many thoughts not enough room to store it all.

Perfect for those who think they can't do it, think they can't move on... because you can.

I miss school, there's nothing more to say to that because it's plain to see. I'm finally letting go of my past and moving on. I try to be more colorful and spend time with my brothers and just be there for my family because I won't be there much longer. I've moved on from Cookie... It hurts the way he left me and never told me why, but I realized I don't need a why. He left because he wanted too... He is 18, he is a man, he can do whatever he wants and if that is breaking hearts, then so be it. I don't need it nor do I want it. So I moved on. I'm not planning on being with someone else for a while, but it doesn't hurt to look. Just don't touch.

When we went to Wisconsin, I walked around the mall with my brothers and every time a cute girl came by him, he would giggle... Ever time a good looking guy came by me, I got looked at and a head nod... Guy, what does a head nod mean exactly? Do you have a twitch or is your head hurting? lol. It's just like this Angel guy Waifu is trying to set me up with... I know I can't be with him but it doesn't hurt to be friends for a bit longer. No this is not a random pic off of google. This is actually him..... Cute huh... HA... I've known who he was since freshman year but didn't really talk to him until my sophomore year... only because he was obsessed with Waifu, but she saiod that she didn't like him like that and he was hurt. So I was there to help him back on his feet and feeling somewhat better. I seem to be good at making people feel better.

I'm going into the Air Force because I want too, Not because my parents and grandparents and my aunt and uncles where in it. No I want to be a Physical Therapist and I am not good in school, but I know I can pass the ASVAB and be able to go to college in the Air Force to become a Physical Therapist. I know I can make people feel better and make them well if they were in battle or got badly injured.

Well I am gonna go and clean up my room and try to be on my best behavior because if I do, and am amazing when my dad gets home, I might be able to go over to Waifu's house and spend some time with her... I miss her.. I miss a lot of my friends.

Goodnight,
Best Wishes,

ML-MG

Only Cause You're Beautiful....

How many of you have ever been called beautiful? Been called pretty or gorgeous? How about ugly, weird, or anything that is not what you know you are? Me. I have been called many things that I know I am not. Ugly, Fatty, Special Ed, Weirdo and many more but I know I am not who they say I am. I am me. What do you do when they call you those things? Do you run and tell someone or do you hide? I can tell you, DON'T do what I did and bottle it up, hide in your room like someone that is afraid of the way they look or how their hair looks like or even if they are sort and stout and have a tubby tummy. I am proud with the way I look. To me I am beautiful and if a guy can't see that and they have to say I am nothing or I am ugly and tubby, then they are not meant to be with me. Yes, I do need to lose some weight because I have gained some but not much. I have a plan that I am going to be starting soon. I'm gonna wake up early and run. Run around my court yard and my street and down the road until I get to the edge of the highway and turn around and run back. Just need my Ipod back so it won't be so silent.

Do you remember how I said I am lover of music? Well I found a few more songs that make me so happy when I listen to them. Sometimes when I am with my dad he will sing with me and it make me smile even bigger. There called...

1. Tonight Tonight by Hot Chelle Rea.
2. Chelsea by The Summer Set
3. Can't Keep My Hands Off Of You by Simple Plan
4. Love To You by The Summer Set
5. I Like It Like That Way by Hot Chelle Rea
6. and finally Trouble by NeverShoutNever

When I am down and need something to get me up, that's what I listening to or when I am blogging. It is the type of music that makes me want to jump up and down and dance around in the kitchen or living room singing to myself. I need to upgrade my music and start to run more. 

My puppies are soooo BIG. We got them yesterday from Cindy and they are so big. Rocky isn't as big as the other ones but who care, he is just as adorable. He eats fine and he moves around like a worm and his eyes are starting to open finally and he is so sweet. We named them all... There is:

•  Rocky
•  Bear
•  Cubby
•  Hershey
•  Mocha
•  Spot
•  Dipstick

They don't cry like they use to but they do sleep and they love to sniff around and lick you and all of them have their eyes open except Rocky. Since we only have one of the Kittens left, the pups are now my babies. OH OH OH, they are not the pups they are the piglets... Cute ain't it. 

I'm so happy because I might have the possibility to hang out and spend the night with my Waifu. Its so much fun being with her. Especially since we like the same time of happy music and we love to jump up and down and dance like mad men. Angel has been calling and sending me text messages and I feel bad that I can't text back because I got my phone taken away. I hope he doesn't think I am ignoring him because I would never do that to him. Waifu said when I was over there last, that he was sweet and caring and mature and is a sweet heart... Ha.. Sounds like an amazing guy. I know him from school and we hung out a couple of times and her description is about right. I remember on the last day of band class... I wasn't feeling so well and he was in my band class. Waifu and Angel tried to make me feel better by laying me on his legs and she would run her fingers through my hair. Let me tell you what, by the end of that class I felt so much better. He also kissed my head but I kept that to my self because I was dating Cookie and it was a "Hope you feel better" kisses on the head type thing. At least that's the way I took it, but knowing me and my selective hear and visual skills, I might be wrong. 

Who do you call when you are lost or confused? MOM!!! My mom has always been there for me through thick and thin, when Cookie broke my heart, when Loki was being man, when you feel like your whole world is flipped upside down. My mom is my superman in disguise. She might not think she is but to me she is. I don't know what I would do or where I would be or what I would be like with out her. She has helped me through so much crap in my life and I am grateful to have her in my life. AND she was the very first person that supported me in my choices and descisions to go into the Air Force. So a couple days after my birthday in less than a month, I am going to sign up for the DEP, and I am proud. She is my hero and my anchor. I don't NEED and guy. I might WANT one but I don't NEED one... I NEED a mom. \

Our trip to Wisconsin was beautiful. I had a blast with my family and I caught the tossing flowers and I got to FINALLY dance with my daddy. It was amazing. Then we went to Illinois for a day to spend time with my other aunt and uncle and we went on the lake in a boat. Me and my daddy went tubing and Me and my brothers went together and finally me and my Aunt went tubing. It was amazing and I had a blast. It was like the best time in the my life. I love spending time with my family and my cousins. The only problem with that trip was I got sick the day after we went tubing *HAHAHA*... I blame myself.

Well I am gonna give the computer back to my brother so he can get off my back. 

Until Next Time,

Best Wishes,

ML-MG

Why, Why, Why?

That's all I have been asking since he left me... Why? Why did he do it? Why was it ? Did I do something wrong? Did he just stop loving me? Did I say something wrong? Did I upset him to the point he HAD to leave me? What did I do to making him leave me? Why can't I go back and change whatever I did to make him leave? Was it something I was doing wrong? Did he fall in love with someone else? What did I do to make you leave me the way you do? These are only a few of the questions that flow through my head that make me look so sad... If he would just tell me WHY he left, I would be able to not hurt and feel better and not look like my mom took my favorite teddy bear. I'm trying so hard to move on...  I wish a fairly godmother could come down and save me from the emptiness in my heart...

Found this and it fit me perfectly!!!

Well tomorrow is the big day... I'm not as excited as my mom hoped I would be... I might be tomorrow but right now I want to crawl in a hole and sing my favorite songs as loud as I can. The plans have changed alittle bit but not much. We are going to leave tomorrow, go to the wedding, leave Sunday, and go to Illinois on Monday to go the lake with my Aunt and Uncle. I hope that everything will be okay... I hope I'm not sick because my nose is stuffy and my throat is somewhat sore... but I think maybe its because I have been crying so much. We had to give the pups and Piggy to Cindy today and it made me sad to see her because it brought back so many good times, but it was nice to know that she didn't blame me for the whole breaking up thing. Well then it got worse because me and her had to go to her truck and put Piggy and the pups in there, well as soon as she opened the door, the smell of her truck smelled like him, and it took so much energy and strength not to cry right then and there. I gave her a hug and then got into the car. Well after we left my Nannies house, we had to go by Cookie's house to drop off some chicken for Piggy because she eats it for the protein, he was sitting outside waiting for us... and I haven't seen or talked to him since we broke up.. and see him again was like being stabbed in the heart about a million times...

I was listening to a song on Pandora's Radio... and its called "Heartless" by Kayne West. Its about a woman leaving a man... in my head I flip the words to make it sound like a man leaving a woman... I'm a music person, always have been... If I had to pick between music and t.v. I would pick music. The lyrics always either fits the mood or its almost like they know exactly how you feel. For example... All of my "Serious Boyfriends" and I have had "OUR SONG", such as

1. Me and Baker was "Cowboy take me away" by The Dixie Chicks
2. Me and Loki was "Somewhere over the Rainbow" by I.Z.
3. Me and Cookie was "God gave me you" by Blake Shelton

I have always admire the Lyrics to each song. There was never a time that I would actually dislike a song. I'm the type that listens to EVERYTHING.. From country to blue to rock n' roll to pop and even irish rock and celtic. I love music. 

Have you even been told that you act older than you actually are...? Well I was told that today by my Uncle... He told me for an almost 17 year old child, I act like a 21 year old adult. I have no clue if that is a complement or if that is an insult. Since my dad was in the Navy and I had to help my mom with a lot while he was gone, I had to grow up faster than a normal teenager. Yeah, I still back talk and act up sometimes but when it gets down to the nitty gritty, I have to admit I have grown up a lot faster than a typical teenager. Is the necessarily bad? No not at all. In some cases yea, like trying to find a guy that is on the same level as you are, but in some cases no, its not bad at all... Say for instance, my parents were to leave for the weekend, I would be able to watch the boys with no problems at all and mom and dad would not have to worry, or if to be left alone in the house for a week, to know that they could come back to it clean and everything that they told to be left alone would be LEFT ALONE. It has its ups and its down but I don't hate it at all. 

What if you were told that you are different? What would you do? Today while my baby brother, Wee Burger, was playing video games with his male cousins, the two younger ones that are 6 an 8 were making fun of him because he was not winning any of the games on the Wii. They pointed and laughed and said that he was different, that he didn't fit in. He came in the kitchen in tears, absolutely bawling. So as the bigger sister and the oldest of the cousins and grand-babies, I took Wee Burger outside to the swing and talked to him. He told me he was upset because they called him different... My Uncle was sitting on the other side of the porch listening to the conversation while fixing the porch, and he told Wee Burger that HE WAS DIFFERENT... because he was raised different. He told me that we all were.. Yeah I know be a Navy Brat you are raised differently from other civilian kids because you have to move a lot and adjust to new people and new schools, but he is 9, he should  NEVER be told he is different. He is the same as everyone one of those cousins in that living room. He might be a Navy Brat but at least he got to see some of the USA. Well after I sent Wee Burger in, my Uncle was started talking to me... Saying I need to go to college before I go into the Air Force... I AM SO SICK OF PEOPLE TRYING TO CHANGE MY MIND!!!! It's made up and I am sticking to it. You can't change it, no one can. Its what I have been planning for a long time... I just wish they would get off my case and except me for my decisions. I know that I will be away but who cares, I will be helping a lot of people and do what I want to do and MAYBE see the world along the way, but I doubt that. 

Well I'm going to log because I need to help my mom paint her toes for the wedding... and I want to get in a game of UNO or Rummy before bed, maybe that will make me feel better. We need to get up and pack the rest of the bags tomorrow and clean up the house so when we come home it will be clean. I know I wrote a lot but I had a lot to say. 

Goodnight, Until Next Time,

Best Wishes,

ML-MG

WHO R U???

Do you remember that movie that was made in the 1951? Okay, do you remember the little cocky catipilliar that smokes... he would inhale the smoke and then exhale letters and pictures... Well I was thinking about what he said to Alice over and over during their scene together... "WHO R U?" I want to answer this... She might have had trouble answering but I know who I am and want to share...

1. I'm not a country girl nor city
2. I'm very unique in my own was
3. My name is Miranda Lynn-Marie Gordon and there is only ONE of me
4. I love my two brothers and my parents more than I could love any guy
5. I'm OBSESSED with Reese Pieces
6. I'm in the love with the band One Direction (They always seem to know exactly how to make me feel better when I am down in the dumps)
7. I'm the controller of weather (sometimes)
8. I'm kind, caring, and sometimes sweet
9. I HAVE THE WORST TEMPER EVER!!!!
10. And finally I'm going to make a great Physical Therapist in the Air Force EVER!

I know who I am, DO YOU???

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger right? Well at least that is what Kelly Clarkson believes... and you know what, I agree... Cookie didn't kill me or anything like that... him leaving me is slowly but surely making me stronger inside. I know he is just a boy and I will be with others just like he will be with other sluts, mean snotty, no good, blonde evil, girls. They will come and they will go, and I don't need to get attached... and I try SO hard not too but its difficult not to if they are kind at first. Sometimes you can't help but look back on the good times and smile... but when they leave then its hard to say goodbye no matter how things get. I will never forget how I met each one of my "Serious" boyfriends... Baker bought me a Popsicle and said it was for the sweetest girl in line and gave it to me... the next day in Bell's class he asked me out... that wasn't the first day I saw him. The first day I saw him was in choir my freshman year and he was the only guy in there... He was alone reading the "The Lightning Theft" and I leaned over to ask him if he was the only guy in the class and he looked at me with gorgeous blue eyes. I remember that like it was yesterday... He was always there for me at school, but whenever I wanted to hang out with him afterwards we simply couldn't (He was an athlete). I ended up leaving him (even though I really didn't want too) I left him for a guy named Jordan. He didn't last very long, very clingy. On May 1st of my sophomore year, I met Loki. He was sweet, caring, kind and an all around good guy... We spent a while with each other. He went to my birthday and then I went to his... but about December something, we started to fight about NOTHING.. we even fought about what color broccoli was.. and finally on January 5th of my junior year, we separated. He did get a little upset that I wouldn't take him back... and to be completely honest... If I could go back to the day that he say it was over... and actually listen to his apology and why he said what he said, I would have gone back with him.. but 'alast I don't have a time machine. Then finally on January 23rd, As a friend Cookie to comfort me and make me feel better for everything I was going through... he ended up asking me out.. and I said yes... but it wasn't the most romantic thing ever.. it was over email to be honest. At least the other two were more romantic about asking me out. Well from the very beginning, it was okay, but then he took me camping... exactly a week after he brought me home... we started fighting... it was horrible, absolutely horrible. That's all we ever did was fight and every single time I try to fix things he would run off to the lake to fish and avoid me. About a week ago, he left me... I blame myself, because I didn't try hard enough to keep him in my life long enough... but its whatever. I was really upset and still am to think that he is dating other people now.. not even a full 2 weeks after leaving me. It makes me think that he didn't care about me at all from the beginning... 

Tomorrow we are go drop of the pups and Piggy to Cindy's house, hoping she understands that Piggy eats human food and we have to hand feed the runt. I hope it won't be to much of a big deal, but he will not be allowed to touch the pups or Piggy... I don't want his negative hurtful energy rubbing off on them and making them into bad pups. I don't talk to them much anymore.. it hurts to think about her because she was so nice and not even 2 days before he left me, she said that if he left me, we would still be friends...  Ha the only friend I have right now is Hannah... and my mom but she already made it clear that she is my mom, my mentor and will not be my friend until I have kids of my own and know how it feels to be annoyed. I don't blame her.. I'm annoying... and I'm talkitive alot... but its part of who I am...

Now with that.. I'm going to try to find something to do until 3 in the morning so I can feed Little Man...

Goodnight, Until next time

Best Wishes,
ML-MG

Boys are Cheats and Liars

I got home about 4:50 and came home with big 'ole stories about marvolous adventures with my Waifu. I got to meet her dad today who turned out to be an amazing duck man.... He has no teeth so he can make the perfect duck face. I'm so happy to be home, but anytime she wants me to come over.... I will be willing to go over there again in a heart beat. I got my report card today and it's official, I passed, but I was also informed my ex tried to contact me while I was gone.. I don't know if he wants me to call him so he can say WHY he left or if he just wants to rub in my face that he is single again.... I did get my phone taken away for 2 weeks for personal reasoning but maybe I'll call just to see what he wants. You never know until you find out that's what I always say...

Yesterday my Waifu drew me the BEST bubble bath I think I have ever had. After she let the water heater warm up, she drew an amazing bath, with hot water and bath salts and bubbles and soapy rose petals and when I stepped in the bath and laid down... I laid out the longest sigh of relief that could be heard out in the hallway... It was exactly what I needed. We ended up staying up half the night dancing and being silly and watching movies like "The Rocky Horror Picture Show" and "Dark Shadow", which are both two EXCELLENT movies.

Not this weekend but the next, I will be heading to Wisconsin for a family wedding which I am so excited for. As soon as we come back the best parts of my senior year summer start to happen such as my class ring and and senior pictures and much more... I'm so excited... It will be amazing.. I came home in a very good mood so I guess I will be saying "AMAZING" a lot... So, what would you do if you had one week to wait before heading to a wedding?


I would find a mountain and climb to the tippy top and scream free at last... No more worrying about whether you can make your life work around a boy... no more worry about how to make a life with someone that obviously didn't care enough to try to make things work... I would scream " I AM FREE AT LAST!!!" I know I keep bring him up but see its the best way to get things off your chest that has been hurting you for days. My mom told me she posted something on my Facebook.. turns out it was a clip from Hot Chick which is a good movie... it has Rob Schneider in it so you know its a good movie. ANY who... the chip is "Boys are cheats and liars... "



Well anyway, I think I'm gonna ask to see what my ex wanted...

Until next time,

Best wishes,
ML-MG

If you could do one thing what would it be?

I have been asked this several times in my life... "If you could do one thing what would it be?"... and never really sat down to think about it until now... If I could do one thing... and one thing ONLY... it would probably go back to Virginia for a day... sit by the sea... Watch the waves roll by.. smell the salt in the air... and stick my feet in the water until they get all pruney. I miss Virginia more than anything in the world... I miss the sea most of all... We have a lot of family friends... and I miss them too. So yeah I that's one thing I would do if I was allowed to do it... Now if it asked for two things.. I would say go camping again.. ONLY because I miss the water...

Now what would you do if you could go back in time and undo things.... I would probably go back and possible not date Cookie... That boy broke my heart in a millions piece... Thank god we never did anything over the extreme... I hate myself for being nice and caring... its a curse I SWEAR it is... There isn't anything in the world I wish I didn't have...He, as my loving friend Waifu says. "He was a player and only wanted one thing.... He can brainwash you into thinking he is nice and caring until he gets what he wants and when he doesn't.. he stops caring and kicks you on the curve." As I said before, if I could go back and undo that day I would. He had the gaul to break up with me OVER A TEXT!!!! Instead of being a mature 18 year old and calling or doing it in person... but you know what I'm somewhat happy he is gone.. and if he wants to come crawling back he can, but it will only be with an apology...

My mom always told me this was a place to vent... Well I vented with Waifu and it only helped to a certain extent... So here I am blowing up on a blog... I don't want my mom to hate me... That the LAST thing I want... To me, after everything he has done, she is the closest thing I got to a friend since I'm not in school no more... Its not right for people to treat others like toys... So mom if your reading this.. I love you very much and I wouldn't trade you for anything in the world... As a wise woman once said... "People come and go but families, they stay together.." I really have no clue what I would do with out my Daddy and my mom...

Right now I'm spending a few days with my friend Waifu... me and her go way back have alot of things in common... such as we both love sugary foods, we both love kingdom hearts and our Wii's...and most of all, you put us in the same room and we go crazy...She is amazing and has been there with me through every hurt, every victory, every lesson that needed to be taught by someone.. or in her words by "Obiwan." This afternoon while she was taking up all the hot water in a relaxing shower.. I called my mom because I missed... When I got done talking to her, she walked in the rooms and I ran the den room and sat in the computer chair and just cried... I felt wrong and bad and I hated myself more than I hated myself in a long time.. She came up behind me with a towel and wiped the tears away.. then I ran to the bathroom and threw up... *HA*... when I came back I was breathing heavy... so you know what this woman did... she gave me MORE icecream.... :D I can tell you right now I'm probably not going to bed until at least 1.  I don't know what I would do with out my friend and my family.

SO on top of ALL of that... Waifu was telling me about this guy named Angel... he apparently the same age as me... but the only problem is, is he is obsessed with Waifu which really SUCKS... She called him which was funny and told him to get over her... and then asked him if he would ask me on a date.. UMMM... HAHAHA... I couldn't stop laughing.. It made me smile so big... and definitely made me stop crying.. he was on speaker and I was on the steps leading into the den... and he said, brace yourselves, he would think about it... I wanted to roll over on the floor and laugh so hard.. I could not believe she actually did that to me.. she told me I DESERVED a good guy like him and that he is definitely my type... instead of crying in sorrow for thinking my mom hated me... I cried in joy for thinking what has she gotten me into.... but hey I can't complain.. she's amazing the way she is....

Now I am going to eat more ice cream and possible dance around and spin till I fall down.... because I know I started out upset... but it feels so much better to get this off my chest... I love you guys, especially mom and with that

Goodnight, Best Wishes,

ML-MG

P.s. Sorry no pics today with my blog.. couldn't save them to Waifu's computer.. Night ((HUGS))